Stress-born word

I WOULDN'T CALL MYSELF A MESS BUT IF IT CAME TO THAT I GUESS YOU COULD USE THAT WORD ON ME. I KNOW IT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU GET RIGHT NOW BUT IN 2.5 YEARS WHEN YOU SEE HER PAINTING LIPSTICK ON A FROWN AND YOU FIND YOURSELF AT THE BOTTOM OF BROKEN BOTTLES EVERY OTHER NIGHT MAYBE THEN YOU'LL UNDERSTAND WHY WE DON'T GO TO CERTAIN PLACES AND WE DON'T TALK ON CERTAIN DAYS AND WHY WE RUN FROM CERTAIN WORDS THE WAY YOU ALWAYS RAN FROM MINE. 

-bf